What Kind of Messenger Have I Been?

Luke 2:16-21

The shepherds went in haste to Bethlehem and found Mary and Joseph,
and the infant lying in the manger.
When they saw this,
they made known the message
that had been told them about this child.
All who heard it were amazed
by what had been told them by the shepherds.
And Mary kept all these things,
reflecting on them in her heart.
Then the shepherds returned,
glorifying and praising God
for all they had heard and seen,
just as it had been told to them.
When eight days were completed for his circumcision,
he was named Jesus, the name given him by the angel
before he was conceived in the womb.

Sometimes I ponder what the angels actually looked like when they came to the shepherds. I mean after all, here they are it is night, cold and they probably want to get some sleep. Then this vision appears and not only does it scare them, but then it makes them want to go find this child. Then to go and actually find the child as it was told to them? Yeah, I would be telling everyone that I met on the way back too. That to me would be a life defining, life changing event. But do I act like those shepherds? Do I share the light and news of Jesus like I should? What about the angels? Do I share my love and joy and boldly as they do? Sometimes yes, most times no. Why, I can't honestly say. I guess I figure that most people already know. That's the thing though. Most people have heard of that Jesus guy, do they know how he changes lives? Jesus has changed my life immensely. I used to be puddle jumping from pleasure to pleasure to find some "happiness" in this world. When I follow Jesus and his ways. I just have sheer joy. The world seems so crazy anymore. The world needs love. The world needs hope. What am I doing about it? These are questions that inspire me and that also make me ashamed sometimes. Jesus for me is just... well he just is amazing. I know to some that may sound stupid, but if you are lost or feel like something is missing I urge you to personally connect with Jesus in prayer today! He's waiting to love you with all his heart. 

Jesus,

I love you so much, and you know that I am no shepherd or angel. I am sorry. You have given me so much and have asked for so little. Help me to have courage today and moving forward. Help me to love like you do. Send the Holy Spirit down and have him give me the wisdom and understanding I need to move forward as I should. I want to be the best man I can be. Not for me, but for you and everyone that I meet.

In Jesus Christ's name I pray,

Amen